"Your so sweet, your so cute, know will you please pick up the phone" Madhu's phone started ringing loudly.
" hello" he answered
"hi, you sleeping? did i disturb you!" Sravanthi said she was in the other end.
"n.....ope, i..was just....... anyways what happen you called?" he replied
" remember you have to meet me today at six, i have to talk with you something important" she said
" yeah! i will be there on time..... bye... take care" he hurriedly ran to bathroom. it was already five fifteen by then...........
Srav(as he calls) and he were class mates for 4 years in engineering and now they are colleagues in the same office.
"What is there to loose, everything is lost", Madhu sighed deeply at the very thought of evening incident. He got on the train with so many thoughts whirled around in his mind and did not care those Punjabi couple who are trying to sit as close as possible leaving no space between them in opposite berth. He leaned towards the window only to see the vacuum to get rid of all the thoughts from his mind. But he couldn't forget everything what happened in last couple of days. He thought that she will express her love when she called up to talk an important but he never expected her to say
'And probably this will be our last meeting in our life as we will leave to US just before u come back from Delhi'.
He still remembered their clash on 1st day of the college, becoming Mr &Ms Fresher, 1mile walk in the rain during their tour to Manali and most recently kissing on his forehead in 'GET TOGETHER' party with their office staff.
......Temme dude, what's the so important matter? He asked
"U know, I have told u many times that my parents are looking for a match.
Now they have finalized with a NRI from US. Our horoscope is also matching perfectly. They urging the marriage should take place in 15 days as that guy won't get leave again" she said
"Could u give a glass of water, please", Madhu asked while looking at the sky with his hands rubbing the sweat on his face.
"And probably this will be our last meeting in our life as we will leave to US just before u come back from Delhi".
"…uhhhhh", he took a long breath.
"Thank you, all the best for u r future life", he uttered and before he walked away,
"A small gift for u and open it after going home", she gave a pack wrapped in color paper with her eyes looking anxiously for his answer.
He didn't say anything except 'Thanks'.
The light was put off and the husband (I guess) now encroached her lap completely by leaving half of the berth empty. When the train stopped at a small station the whole compartment is in deep sleep. Madhu got up to get something to eat and suddenly he remembered about the gift while taking the parcel of samosas from vendor. He rushed back to train to open the gift which she has given in the evening. He found a greeting card referring to VERY SPECIAL with her written words
U have been my best friend before u became very special to me. All these days I had a fear if u say NO; But now I m saying
Ami tomAy bhAlobAshi
Tane Prem Karoo Choo
Mu tumaku bhala paye
Main tumse pyar karti hun
Maza Tuzyavar Prem Ahe
enikku ninne ishtamanu
Naanu Ninna Preethisuve
nenu ninnu premisthunnanu
Naan Unnai Kadhalikiren
I love you
Hopefully, I'll live with you forever…
He got down from the train once again but this time with his bag…giving those couple more space… to catch the return train…
(It's one of my friend's own experiences and the names were changed on his request )
Sree...
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Life is unfair to me...
As usual I lied on the bed before sleeping, gazing at the sky to observe the plough of stars as I always do especially when I sleep on the terrace during summer. But this time I could see something peculiar in the sky which loomed close to my eyes scared me and made me to close my eyes before I hid under blanket. Further, I did not dare to peep from the cover and but closed eyes firmly to get slumbered.
This was not the first time I have gone through some horrific experience; almost daily I m encountering some strange dreams from last few days, especially after my recent break up with Priyanka. Also, I am not able to digest the fact that I am not gonna make in to good universities after my consecutive poor performance in GRE. Even the universities which showed sympathy by giving admission are not ready to give funding. My Uncle whom was I assuming as financier for my MS has given a jolt by saying his job is in jeopardize and he can be no longer as sponsor. Now, I am neither sure of getting Visa nor fulfilling my ambition of studying aeronautics in reputed university.
Also, I am frustrated with monotonous work in my job; became inert and not able to do simple tasks assigned to me. My boss says I am a dullard and my colleagues treat me as a maniac. Soon I may be fired from the job which I have been doing from last two years.
I can figure out the only solution to all the above problems is running away from everyone. Yes, I don't want this life which is so unfair to me….
-B.V.Patel
(This is the mail I got from some one who's very frustrated with his life and want a solution to his problems)
Sree…
This was not the first time I have gone through some horrific experience; almost daily I m encountering some strange dreams from last few days, especially after my recent break up with Priyanka. Also, I am not able to digest the fact that I am not gonna make in to good universities after my consecutive poor performance in GRE. Even the universities which showed sympathy by giving admission are not ready to give funding. My Uncle whom was I assuming as financier for my MS has given a jolt by saying his job is in jeopardize and he can be no longer as sponsor. Now, I am neither sure of getting Visa nor fulfilling my ambition of studying aeronautics in reputed university.
Also, I am frustrated with monotonous work in my job; became inert and not able to do simple tasks assigned to me. My boss says I am a dullard and my colleagues treat me as a maniac. Soon I may be fired from the job which I have been doing from last two years.
I can figure out the only solution to all the above problems is running away from everyone. Yes, I don't want this life which is so unfair to me….
-B.V.Patel
(This is the mail I got from some one who's very frustrated with his life and want a solution to his problems)
Sree…
Friday, May 1, 2009
Another frightful day in my life
I woke up early in the morning at 6.59 AM just a minute before my mobile alarm rang, finished my morning prayer before I rushed to get ready to go for the job. It was severe cold outside true to forecast -21 C (feels like)temperature and adding to the woes there was heavy snow falling with wind speed of 85 kmph made me to hesitate to go out of my room. I prepared myself wearing a thick jacket along with thermals; warm fleece mittens to keep the fingers protected and put on earmuffs as if I was marching to war. Somehow I stepped out and walked steadily towards the bus stop to catch the Shuttle. As I was near to the bus stop i could see two black people and hear one mumbling by looking at me. I got unnerved and no longer could walk but tried to act as if I was on phone and did not care them. Once they ensured that there was no one except me, they started approaching me and I shrank back against their direction by holding my breath. When I walked for some distance I have seen the shuttle advancing with high speed but there was no way I go back to the stop as those buggers were still chasing me. Eventually I had to go back to my room and lock inside till I was made sure that they were not in sight.
I was late to the job by 1 hour and the gas station owner growled at me for not opening it at 8 and I had to make it up by working till evening 6 by bunking the Maths class. It became 11 PM by the time I reached my room after finishing another job at Indian store; got exhausted completely especially standing for more than four hours at store. There was no one at my room by that time as my room mates have already left for their jobs in motels and it has become 4 days since I have seen them. As I was very hungry I opened the refrigerator to find nothing and then I had to cook the rice to eat with the pickles. It became 12.59 AM in my mobile when I was setting the alarm to wake up at 7AM to start another frightful day in my life.
-RAJESH
I was late to the job by 1 hour and the gas station owner growled at me for not opening it at 8 and I had to make it up by working till evening 6 by bunking the Maths class. It became 11 PM by the time I reached my room after finishing another job at Indian store; got exhausted completely especially standing for more than four hours at store. There was no one at my room by that time as my room mates have already left for their jobs in motels and it has become 4 days since I have seen them. As I was very hungry I opened the refrigerator to find nothing and then I had to cook the rice to eat with the pickles. It became 12.59 AM in my mobile when I was setting the alarm to wake up at 7AM to start another frightful day in my life.
-RAJESH
Sree…
Friday, April 24, 2009
Mission 'INDIA'
My brain was working harder than ever before, thousand of different thoughts started conflicting to generate a physical phenomenon called 'Headache'. I could no longer concentrate on my work, leaned forward on the desk and asked Malli (maid) to bring cup of tea so that I would be easy for evening teleconference.
The screen on my lappy flashed up to show a huge crowd of about a hundred people who convened in an open place, cheering to welcome their leader Bhagat. Most of the people in that group were personal drivers, secretaries of politicians, contractors and business people, some of them were Government employees, Students, Doctors, Lawyers and software engineers. It followed Bhagath's talk in quiet atmosphere,
"I welcome all the people of our ACB Anti Corruption Bureau (but it is A CONSULTANCY BUSINESS for out side world) fraternity, who have the same motto of 'saving India' by eliminating the culture of corruption and corrupted people from the society. Giving the updates, last week our boys have done great job by recovering Rs 100 millions from eight corrupted politicians across the state. Also few of our guys succeeded in getting the details about black money deposits of two contractors and two government Doctors in four different places and they are soon going to recover that money as well. It has been outstanding so far and our group has done great work but you do remember that we are not even half way through our task. As of now, we were able to recover only Rs 2000000000 from 87 places and it's believed that we can still recover 10 more times to this money. So far 22 of our people have been caught and put in imprisonment though none of them gave any clue about our group or our activity. So keep in mind that we are prepared to put our life at stake and get going by remembering our basic rules and cautions. The Team-1 has already identified 54 more 'to be eliminated from corruption' people across the state and our group of intellectuals are chalking out plans for how to go for next foray in our mission.
I once again presume that this whole money actually should go to many poor people for providing the basic necessities like health, shelter and education and Team2 is working on how it is implemented. The recovered money will also be dispersed across the state and some of the places which require immediate development have been already identified. It's also your responsibility to provide the suggestions and solutions through our network mail in successful completion of our greatest endeavor on the earth. Most importantly you should be honest and faithful towards our ACB even at the situation where someone keeps a knife on your neck. There is nothing personal and selfish in regard to our job and organization.
Last but not the least; don't forget that we are the in the consultancy business as per the out side world knows but as per our heart goes we are in business of 'Saving India' by redeeming from the evil of corruption. "
After hearing to Bhagat words 'there is nothing personal…..' I was more determined and there was no apprehension in including her father's name in the 54 named list despite the fact that I may feel guilty whenever I will see in to her eyes.
How the money is recovered !!!!!
Sree…
The screen on my lappy flashed up to show a huge crowd of about a hundred people who convened in an open place, cheering to welcome their leader Bhagat. Most of the people in that group were personal drivers, secretaries of politicians, contractors and business people, some of them were Government employees, Students, Doctors, Lawyers and software engineers. It followed Bhagath's talk in quiet atmosphere,
"I welcome all the people of our ACB Anti Corruption Bureau (but it is A CONSULTANCY BUSINESS for out side world) fraternity, who have the same motto of 'saving India' by eliminating the culture of corruption and corrupted people from the society. Giving the updates, last week our boys have done great job by recovering Rs 100 millions from eight corrupted politicians across the state. Also few of our guys succeeded in getting the details about black money deposits of two contractors and two government Doctors in four different places and they are soon going to recover that money as well. It has been outstanding so far and our group has done great work but you do remember that we are not even half way through our task. As of now, we were able to recover only Rs 2000000000 from 87 places and it's believed that we can still recover 10 more times to this money. So far 22 of our people have been caught and put in imprisonment though none of them gave any clue about our group or our activity. So keep in mind that we are prepared to put our life at stake and get going by remembering our basic rules and cautions. The Team-1 has already identified 54 more 'to be eliminated from corruption' people across the state and our group of intellectuals are chalking out plans for how to go for next foray in our mission.
I once again presume that this whole money actually should go to many poor people for providing the basic necessities like health, shelter and education and Team2 is working on how it is implemented. The recovered money will also be dispersed across the state and some of the places which require immediate development have been already identified. It's also your responsibility to provide the suggestions and solutions through our network mail in successful completion of our greatest endeavor on the earth. Most importantly you should be honest and faithful towards our ACB even at the situation where someone keeps a knife on your neck. There is nothing personal and selfish in regard to our job and organization.
Last but not the least; don't forget that we are the in the consultancy business as per the out side world knows but as per our heart goes we are in business of 'Saving India' by redeeming from the evil of corruption. "
After hearing to Bhagat words 'there is nothing personal…..' I was more determined and there was no apprehension in including her father's name in the 54 named list despite the fact that I may feel guilty whenever I will see in to her eyes.
How the money is recovered !!!!!
Sree…
Friday, April 17, 2009
God's blessing...
Last night when I was surfing I have come across a nice story which I thought I can share with my friends. Here the story goes like this:
A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many years he had admire a beautiful sports car in a dealer’s showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted. As the graduation day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him in to his private study room. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box.
Curious, but somewhat the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather bound BHAGAVADGEETHA. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, “ With all your money you give me a ‘BHAGAVADGEETHA’ book?” and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in his business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of the things. When he arrived at his father’s house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search his father’s most important papers and saw the still new BHAGAVADGEETHA , just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the BHAGAVADGEETHA to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the holy book. It had a tag with the dealer’s name, the same dealer ho had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words…
How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?
Sunday, April 12, 2009
..am getting married!!!
Last night I had a dream about me getting married. I was standing in front of the temple, in my wedding dress; slowly as the doors were opening, I could see an image of a lady far away from me. She was standing near the altar, though her image was really blurred, I could still see that she was smiling at me. As I walked down the aisle, I felt in my heart the nervousness and excitement to see the woman that I was about to marry.
Unfortunately my cell phone alarm was turned on and my brain automatically responded to the annoying sound. After preparing myself on going to the office, I went to the bus station and seated comfortably in the back row. As I was listening to the radio, a wedding song 'alanaati raamachandruni' (from Murari movie) was played. I felt it was really unusual for the station to play such a song. Then I recalled my dream. I was so curious, who was the girl I was about to marry? Then someone came into my mind; she was my friend. A very close friend actually, she was also one of the persons that I almost fell in love with before but I only considered her a very good friend. I really don't know what came into my mind as if I was wishing that it would be her, that she would be the girl that I would marry in my dreams.
Traffic came my way this morning. I was worried being late at work but I enjoyed the traffic that morning. I recalled every sweet moment that this girl and I have the past few days, though I was not giving any spite in those things. Maybe I was so moved by her that we are starting to be really, really close these past few days. Maybe it was all my imagination. A little wish inside my heart that even in my dreams, we could be together more than friends. I went into my day, as I walked inside the office, I was feeling this different mood as if I was really happy, then I opened my Yahoo Messenger and started greeting my friends good morning and shouting to the world that I was very much happy that day and I was totally in the good mood. I really felt so lively, maybe it was because of the dream or maybe it was because the weather was not so hot, though I was a bit late in the office everything really went well. I really didn't care for the reason of me being happy but I liked that kind of feeling.
The day is almost over; I was looking forward on going home and had a good night sleep in my bed.
But I still had one hour to go before I could finally get out of the office. And then a message popped into my screen, "she" was online ... she greeted me good evening and asked me why I was so happy that day. She even teased me that I was in love that is why I was happy, but I said no. We talked about our day; she said that she also had a good day. We talked for a while that I didn't notice the time. It was almost 6:30 before I signed off. I was happy that we still didn't miss to communicate to each other even though we haven't seen each other that day. She stopped me from leaving but I really had to go, as I was fixing my things, she kept on sending messages; the one that really shocked me is her last sentence. She said, "You know what, I had a cute dream last night, we were about to get married in an old temple where I used to stay every time I was sad. You are there standing by the door and looking at me from afar, you were wearing a beautiful gown." I paused for a moment, it felt like everything around me stopped moving; I didn't know how to respond in what she said. In the end I answered her with a smiley and said, "What a cute dream, sorry now, but I really have to go bye-bye."
I really didn't know how to handle that kind of situation, but I left my office with a smile in my face. I couldn't tell her that I also dreamt the same thing because she might think that I was making it up but I was happy the way it happened. That night I could not sleep, expecting more coincidences……
Sree...
Unfortunately my cell phone alarm was turned on and my brain automatically responded to the annoying sound. After preparing myself on going to the office, I went to the bus station and seated comfortably in the back row. As I was listening to the radio, a wedding song 'alanaati raamachandruni' (from Murari movie) was played. I felt it was really unusual for the station to play such a song. Then I recalled my dream. I was so curious, who was the girl I was about to marry? Then someone came into my mind; she was my friend. A very close friend actually, she was also one of the persons that I almost fell in love with before but I only considered her a very good friend. I really don't know what came into my mind as if I was wishing that it would be her, that she would be the girl that I would marry in my dreams.
Traffic came my way this morning. I was worried being late at work but I enjoyed the traffic that morning. I recalled every sweet moment that this girl and I have the past few days, though I was not giving any spite in those things. Maybe I was so moved by her that we are starting to be really, really close these past few days. Maybe it was all my imagination. A little wish inside my heart that even in my dreams, we could be together more than friends. I went into my day, as I walked inside the office, I was feeling this different mood as if I was really happy, then I opened my Yahoo Messenger and started greeting my friends good morning and shouting to the world that I was very much happy that day and I was totally in the good mood. I really felt so lively, maybe it was because of the dream or maybe it was because the weather was not so hot, though I was a bit late in the office everything really went well. I really didn't care for the reason of me being happy but I liked that kind of feeling.
The day is almost over; I was looking forward on going home and had a good night sleep in my bed.
But I still had one hour to go before I could finally get out of the office. And then a message popped into my screen, "she" was online ... she greeted me good evening and asked me why I was so happy that day. She even teased me that I was in love that is why I was happy, but I said no. We talked about our day; she said that she also had a good day. We talked for a while that I didn't notice the time. It was almost 6:30 before I signed off. I was happy that we still didn't miss to communicate to each other even though we haven't seen each other that day. She stopped me from leaving but I really had to go, as I was fixing my things, she kept on sending messages; the one that really shocked me is her last sentence. She said, "You know what, I had a cute dream last night, we were about to get married in an old temple where I used to stay every time I was sad. You are there standing by the door and looking at me from afar, you were wearing a beautiful gown." I paused for a moment, it felt like everything around me stopped moving; I didn't know how to respond in what she said. In the end I answered her with a smiley and said, "What a cute dream, sorry now, but I really have to go bye-bye."
I really didn't know how to handle that kind of situation, but I left my office with a smile in my face. I couldn't tell her that I also dreamt the same thing because she might think that I was making it up but I was happy the way it happened. That night I could not sleep, expecting more coincidences……
Sree...
Friday, April 3, 2009
My idea of 'True Love'..
I was splashing my hands helplessly in the Hussain sagar. I can’t even swim in a pond, let alone in the river. I was semiconscious when my friend brought me to the shore, I could recollect four people whose faces hided in masks beating me with the rods before I was thrown in to the river and then saved by my friend. I know they were sent by Preety's father to kill me.
My nightmare ended as my cell phone rang hard just close to my right ear and I woke up to its ‘Mothership’ ringtone but it got disconnected before I attempted to lift. I understood that it was from Preethi and she is going to come online in 10 minutes. I rushed to my friend Sree’s room for his laptop to sign in Gtalk account. As soon as I signed in the chat window popped up,
Preethi: Gud morning, sir
Me: Hi, gm Madam..
Preethi: wat time r u starting?
Me: I’ll start in an hour ..n it takes 3 hrs 2 reach hyd.
Preethi: Make sure that u’ll show up by 3 PM@ Cineplex cafe..
Me: ok..done
Preethi: U remembered na, I’ll b in white Chudidar..
Me : ya …It’s difficult to identify but I’ll try..if I cant, call me frm coin box..ok na?
Preethi: ok..ok..
Me: ok then, c u at 3 PM, sharp!!
Preethi: ok..byee..love U
Me: love U too…Bye
Preethi: bye.. wid 1000 kisses
Me: caught all…k, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
When I was sleeping in my room in the evening, I got disturbed by my friend Sree knocking the door to call for dinner. To my surprise, he did not ask anything about my first meeting with Preethi though he was the one who advocated me to meet up. In fact, he’s the only person who knows about my 6 months love story, right from my initial chating in yahoo to our commitment for marriage without seeing each other face to face.
After some time, he assured ‘Dude, leave it.. I know she might not be as beautiful as you expected. It’s very silly to go absolutely nuts about a girl before you actually sees her, don't worry you can try for another girl'. I shrugged, didn’t say anything for a while though it seemed like he has conceived what I really sensed after looking Preethi first time @Cineplex. It’s true that I could not talk with her comfortably despite the fact that we knew each other from 6 months. It’s true that I got some strange feeling, like some repulsive force restrained me talking with her when I saw her first time. May be Sree was correct; she was not like my dream girl in her figure, looks or mien. May be he was not correct as my first impression could be deceiving!!!!!
In the next day morning I ascertained to Sree ‘ yar, your mistaken, I have the same kind of feeling towards her. I know everything about her nature, her liking and disliking also I understood her completely before I committed to her. Now, how my love on her diminishes just because she’s not so beautiful!’ (In fact she’s very fair to my shabby and crumpled face).
As I was thinking I could recall my understanding of true love
‘When u forgets yourself, deeply eliminating in someone else existence... when you sense the link between your both hearts and souls... when you are not belonged to your own’...
I realized that mine was true love and it never ends..
By the way I am Sarath , working for a multinational company in Hyderabad, just 10 miles to Preethi’s home. Now, I thank my friend Sree for giving an opportunity to express my experience of LOVE on the occasion of my 3rd successful year of ‘TRUE LOVE’.
---Sarath
Sree…
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