It had been twenty three hours since i was laid on a bed in SS hospital, and i felt severe pain in the muscles , migraine and dizziness with head movement. O, god i can't describe what was my condition, i felt like going to die soon..I could not hear anything when people around me were talking although everyone seemed muttering themself . When i turned my head , i could see a lady in her white apron (may be doctor) saying something to Sandhya and all of sudden i could here some screaming sounds (i guess sandhya's) from my right corner. I could percieve Doctor's words ' it gonna be last day to him'. I closed my eyes before it closes forever, and thought for a while about death. The words about DEATH spoken by a great Indian philosopher echoed in my ears.
'Death is as good as birth, death is no different to birth. Either of them is inevitable and both the incidents symbolize the presence of divinity. During the birth, Lord Krishna himself comes and occupy the soul and also during death the body is taken to the burial ground where Lord Shiva abides himself. So consider the death also like symbol of exaltation.'
The words pacified my agony but could not digest the fact that sandhya 'll be left alone without me. I had never been away from her for more than one day since our wedlock. I did not want to leave her, i wanted to live for her. I made a brave attempt to get up only to tell her 'i don't want to leave you', As you know, man proposes but god disposes, i could not tell my last words to her. This time the room became so silent and i could see only darkness. I started counting the seconds and prayed god last time.
Some one was calling sree, sree, sree!!!! Hey, i could hear the sound and also i could see a glare from the window..Oops, i haven't died...Yes, god harkened to me, understood my misery and agony...
Here Sandhya explains, ''last night you have got 105 F temperature in your body due to Malaria and Doctor said that it gonna be alright. Alas!! the patient just next to you died last night and i could not talk with you as the room was occupied with many of that patient relatives.''
Sree...
'Death is as good as birth, death is no different to birth. Either of them is inevitable and both the incidents symbolize the presence of divinity. During the birth, Lord Krishna himself comes and occupy the soul and also during death the body is taken to the burial ground where Lord Shiva abides himself. So consider the death also like symbol of exaltation.'
The words pacified my agony but could not digest the fact that sandhya 'll be left alone without me. I had never been away from her for more than one day since our wedlock. I did not want to leave her, i wanted to live for her. I made a brave attempt to get up only to tell her 'i don't want to leave you', As you know, man proposes but god disposes, i could not tell my last words to her. This time the room became so silent and i could see only darkness. I started counting the seconds and prayed god last time.
Some one was calling sree, sree, sree!!!! Hey, i could hear the sound and also i could see a glare from the window..Oops, i haven't died...Yes, god harkened to me, understood my misery and agony...
Here Sandhya explains, ''last night you have got 105 F temperature in your body due to Malaria and Doctor said that it gonna be alright. Alas!! the patient just next to you died last night and i could not talk with you as the room was occupied with many of that patient relatives.''
Sree...
2 comments:
gud one... but one thing why r u always after god, in the last 3 posts i happen to c this repeated statement " man proposes but god disposes" , what made u to go after MR. GOD ????? any tragedies in ur personal life ?
by the way ur view of death is very gud. I would appreciate that
NO tragedies...just i felt it was appropriate to use..that's all..
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